Wednesday, August 29, 2007

What do you do when you meet people who are bent on making you sad or look bad?

Some times in life one meet people who are bent on making you feel miserable. I hate people who would like to make me feel streased. I met some people who tried anything possible to make the already bitter life of mine look more miserable again. I hate it when I am pissed while I am working and some one try to make it worse. I do pity the person, like this stupid student who who was bent on making me feel more unhappier. but I gave him what he deserved, and placed him in the right place. and this old man... too..... I honestly have had a bad experience of this country.

Monday, August 27, 2007

Is it just me.....! or .....

I hope I am not the cause of friction in my interpersonal relationship with people around me. This is a strange world we are living in. I hope I am not the cause of all this mess, for I will be very sad if I was to be the cause.

For some time now I have been trying to clear my inter-personal life with people. I don't know how to describe what I am suffering from. I just get angry with myself for no reason. I feel very…. I don't know how to call my situation. I hope God help me find a better solution to my problems…..

Friday, August 24, 2007

Betrayal of trust.......

The Prophet peace be upon him said..... These are the characteristics of Munafiq : ".....

1. Whenever he is entrusted, he betrays.

2. Whenever he speaks, he tells a lie.

3. Whenever he makes a covenant, he proves treacherous.

4. Whenever he quarrels, he behaves in a very imprudent, evil and insulting manner."

and I dont wanna be any of them..... I like to be loved by God and liked by people..... I suppose that dream will sublime one day.... This day I will never forget, for I have learnt a valuable lesson.... like

1. Don't trust in any one other than the holder of the pencil that draws your destiny (in that case God), and your self to make good of every situation one finds him self in.

2. Pray for only the better.....

see you arround....

Sunday, August 19, 2007


as I only got to know and to my suprise my unc. told me that I get angery very quick..... but I do know one thing tho I know I use to have the desease of not talking to any one who is bend on pissing me off.... but I am looking for a way to control my temper as I have see it is the one trying to control me. I hope any one trying to read this should at least offer a helping hand.

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Is "Hakuna Matata" the "Thug Mansion"

Hakuna matata is a Swahili phrase that is literally translated as "There are no worries here". It is sometimes translated as "no worries", although is more commonly used similarly to the English phrase "no problem".

I wish one day we could just achieve that, and that alone is good for me. All my life I wanted to live a fruitful and normal life, not to cause any hidrance of what so ever to anyone. But life and destiney are great forces to be reckoned with. And am trying to do my best to survive, cos life is war and with the blessing and company of the Almighty we will scale through.

As Tupac said "No one knows my struggle, they only see the trouble Not knowin it's hard to carry on when no one loves you Picture me inside the misery of poverty No man alive has ever witnessed struggles I survived Prayin hard for better days, promise to hold on Me and my dawgs ain't have a choice but to roll on We.... still visualize places, that we can roll in peace And in my mind's eye I see this place, the players go in fast I got a spot for us all, so we can ball, at thug's mansion."

Life seem sometimes unfare and that is what it has been since the beggining of time. I wish.... just let me keep my wishes to my self for now, because wishes are dangerous...... hehehehe see you all

Life is how one makes it.....

Indeed that is true..... I have just come to a realization is very true ...... if you take life lightly it shall meet you in kind and vice-versa.... I have taken life in an angle that is too far.... to cope with and I am always filled with guilt....... that is not soo healthy for me...... dont ya think...... see ya next time....

Saturday, August 11, 2007


I messed up pretty bad.... I smash someone's laptop screen by mistake.... and the owner.... I cant face him with the news... if I should have know I traveled yesterday, all this migt not have happend.... I now have to face ma unc.... cos he has a similar one.... and work out a deal that will give me time..... may God have mercy on me.... ooh

Tuesday, August 07, 2007

There is no excus

I think there is no excus for failiure and the more you try to explain the more damage you cause... so is better to keep quit and let time do the talking. because even Fidel Castro said it at his trail where he is accused to trying to overthrow the ruling dictator. he said "History will absolve him", and so will it absolve us all. we are all trying to do something good with or in our short lives. I do hope I will have a favoured place with my lord... in the here after.


Saturday, August 04, 2007

The Countdown

Here I am sitting and the countdown is near an end.... I wish my self good luck ...... and I hope you the reader do the same..... I ..... just let me keep it my self.

Friday, August 03, 2007

Here I am

Here I am thinking of how to survive.... of late I have been thinking.... very seriously...... of how to survive and move on.... with life.... but I think there is light at the end of this turnnel.

Thursday, August 02, 2007


I hope I get to the end of this under takens that I have or about to put on my shoulders, just pray for me it lands me well if you read this.... ameen I have da feelin that I will survive after every turmoil and twist and turns... I hope so.... may God be with us all the way.